i dont want just anyone.

what if all we need to find in life is already there. what if its already infront of us, but we just spend our whole life searching for it - in the end we come up with a life full of experiences but we didnt learn how to hold the few things that were not only experiences.
the persons we used to laugh with until we were on the floor, the ones that saw our tears when others saw us laughing, the ones that would wake up , walk to your place, hold you tight because you felt sad,the ones that you can talk about anything with even embarassing things and they would only smile and keep listening, the ones that just told you they would hate you but still love you.
there is nothing we can ever loose in our life, those few ones will always come back to you if it was for real.
but what if they dont, maybe noone deserves to have these people, these people are the biggest worth someone can have, maybe we dont deserve to loose these people. we will only find out afterwards ,what they were worth to us.maybe we dont deserve to know that if we wouldnt have had them we wouldnt have know that our life is a waste without them.
maybe we should not get in rage if they hurt us, anyone who is close enough to bring us to tears means more to us than we know.what if all we have to do is be glad that we have the people we have.
what if we are lucky enough that they will share our lifes.
what if we tell them everyday how much they mean to us, instead of getting angry. if we dont search the unknown but know that we have them.
what if we already have everything we ever need in our lifes.

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# Posté le jeudi 03 avril 2008 13:26

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this aint it, its just the beginning.
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# Posté le mardi 25 décembre 2007 14:04

ive had my fill; my share of loosing, and now, as tears subside i find it all so amusing.

i have a big ego, yes , im probably the most arrogant and vain person you ever saw.
i can put every feeling, every mood, every motion in my heart back and just laugh because the whole is unimportant. in the long run its the people ive met through my life, the people i lost , the people that became from strangers to friends, the people i love,they are important, those people shaped me, they made me who i am, not the vain outershell but the inside.
i am one of the strongest persons you will ever meet.yet the weakest.if you finally found the spot where to hurt me i can do nothing but smile, the inside died long ago.., thats why you call me arrogant.
you think i giggle at you, i cry. i shout, my heart broke.you think im arrogant, im afraid. you think i raise my finger to teach you, i lost. every second you hurt that little girl inside, the big arrogant shell is trying protect her because shes nothing but the true me. if you think youve hurt me, because i show it, you only scratched my protection.those few people that mean more than the world to me know that, when youve hurt the inside, id never show it. i am weak, but i cant be weak, survival of the strongest,therefore i am strong.
if i ever cried infront of you one knows , you are from the few people who got even so near to my heart that i showed my weakness, the shell opened and the vulnerable piece inside opens up, without protection, under your view.but again you dont know how many tears ive given only by the thought of loosing that possibility, to open up towards one. i try to forget that i can get hurt too, i wake up and put makeup on, i dress and i smile, i smile at my shell, my shell is smiling back. i go to superficial people in a hypocrite world.my shell fits in, but im desperately waiting for you to discover me , to understand why i cant talk to you, to understand why id like to talk to you for hours, to see why i cant imagine being without you one single second, to see why its killing me that your not there, to feel what i feel for you, to carry on because i give up, to walk next to me, to raise me up.
against common gossiping, i dont have regrets. its all relative, time goes by. i dont orientate myself along others, like people orientate themselves along stars, those are blown up dead plantes giving away their last breath.my heart is my guide. and it leads me there to where it hurts the most, and gets the most pleasure at teh same time.
i am the outershell , i am skinny, tall. perfect.
i am me..for you.
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# Posté le jeudi 04 octobre 2007 15:00

Modifié le vendredi 05 octobre 2007 05:08

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"Strangers in the night exchanging glances
Wondring in the night
What were the chances wed be sharing love
Before the night was through.
Something in your eyes was so inviting,
Something in you smile was so exciting,
Something in my heart,
Told me I must have you.
Strangers in the night, two lonely people
We were strangers in the night
Up to the moment
When we said our first hello.
Little did we know
Love was just a glance away,
A warm embracing dance away and -
Ever since that night weve been together.
Lovers at first sight, in love forever.
It turned out so right,
For strangers in the night."

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# Posté le samedi 29 septembre 2007 05:46

no caption.

" stop smoking, you are gonna get cancer! "
"shut up, you anorexic."
(L)
haha
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# Posté le mercredi 19 septembre 2007 13:53